I feel like Sydney Carton right about now

If you read "A Tale of Two Cities" you would know what I'm talking about. But in any case I'll elaborate more on that.

Long Lapse Isn't It

God I felt like a fool. I shouldn't have given you the music. You already had music. You are marrying a well-established musician. She's a country musician, blonde. Damn what the hell was I thinking giving you Elliot Smith, Bright Eyes and Sufjan Stevens. Oh I know what I was hoping to be your muse.

Believe me I was real saddened when I saw the woman you are going to marry. Unfortunately I found the photo. I felt like an ugly duckling. Of course you are a glamourous football player. What on earth would you be doing with a young artist who's working class.

Throughout Thanksgiving I was tempted to throw my photos and the football jersey over the Congress bridge into the Colorado River. I felt so useless.

Yoga for you and only you!

I was meaning to write this blog when I read this article on Jezebel.com which was something I relate to.

I started yoga when I was fresh out of college. I needed to do some exercise and I was horrible in team sports. I remember when I was young I was teased and hassled for my athletic ability. I thought I didn't have any but there was this one product mentions there's an athlete in all of us.

I did yoga at a local LA Fitness and this yoga instructor named Lola was eccentric. She did know her yoga practice. The only problem was she favored the flexible, skinny people over the ones that weren't. She would place "good ones" in the front as an example. So eventually I felt left out but for some strange reason I kept practicing with her. So I stopped taking yoga with her and gave up for the next 4 years.

I moved to Austin TX and I found Yoga Yoga. There the teachers were more supportive than the one I had previously and I gained my confidence back.

But no matter what place you choose to practice yoga, make sure you find a teacher that is willing to work with and understand your limitations. A teacher should never favor one person over another. Importantly - YOGA IS FOR EVERYONE!

Yoga is not competitive which was the reason I stuck with it and I love it.

Namaste

So...

I've been addicting to rowing and being a part of the Austin Rowing Club. Also I've been dealing with the hell of owning a home and trying to stay cool in the heat. One of the many things that I'm grateful for taking rowing is that I become acclimated to the heat. Thank god....

I hate when I forget...

I had all these cool things to write about buy I never came around to log on and write it on the blog. I'm still rowing which is one of the best things I have done in awhile. I'm on one crew, the Bladerunners, but I want to join as many crews as possible. I just love the idea that I'm close to the Colorado River/Town Lake and there is also a river/lake in the middle of Austin. Damn I love Austin, TX.

I can't believe that Matt Bellamy of MUSE is going out with Kate Hudson. I don't mind him going out with another woman after his break up with Gaia Polloni but he had to pick Kate Hudson. I find it hilarious that she was interested in Thom Yorke but he was very unresponsive. I didn't know that Matt split up with Gaia until the whole thing with him and Kate Hudson came about. Gaia and Matt was suppose to have a happy ending but it didn't and I was sad for both of them. They went out for the longest time. I just want Matt to be happy and I don't want him to get hurt.

A Self-Appointed Muse

Dear Honey Bunny,

Would you believe if I told you I'm your self-appointed muse? I would love to give your creativity and inspiration. Though you seemed shocked that I burned you some BRMC and told you what it meant. They are not horrible and sinners. Well I guess you can call them restless sinners.

By the way, those CDs I give you are my way of giving you love letters. Musicians use love as their inspiration for their songs. The music speaks for itself.

Good luck in Cincy! I know you will do well.

Love,

Your Muse.

A new active lifestyle

Peace. Love. Rowing.

Peace. Love. Yoga.

I'm on a Rowing high

Love rowing. On Thursday I went on those singles which is called sculling and it was amazing. I was hesitant at first but it was so cool. I figure I'm that type of person that loves working out in alternative spaces. I hate going to a gym. It bores me to death. Speaking of which I need to cancel my gym contract.

What I wouldn't do for you if we're together?

1. give you my SXSW badge. i love you but i'm not going to get my badge confiscated for you.

2. hunting. saw those photos of you hunting. if you enjoy it, then fine. i'll do the fishing. i've been fishing with my dad though not a pro. BTW, i love deers!

3. go clothes shopping. i wouldn't put any guy through that.

4. change your taste in music. c'mon i'm open minded. obviously you love country and Americana music.

5. change your taste in clothes...see number 4

THERE! Now do you want to know what I would do if we're together?

I asked him this....

Me: I will give you (pulled out CDs that I burned) M.Ward, Bright Eyes, Elliot Smith and two magazines I got from SXSW (one was American Songwriters and the other is Music Connection - which had a listing of agents and managers) for your autograph.

He signed and I had my photo taken with him.

Him: Don't forget this (his autographed photo)

Me: Thank you. Enjoy your music!

Him: Thanks.

I think we were both giddy. Maybe in a different dimension we can both get married to each other.

The likelihood of me and him getting married - The Smiths would have a reunion than us getting married.

Heard that it's graduation day at UT.

Ah graduation. June is going to mark my 10 years that I have graduated from UCSB.

I miss those days where we

protested the cancellation of ethnic studies,
elimination of affirmative action,
the fact that the school was literally on the beach,
tar on your feet when you walk on the beach,
laid back campus,
people that you know by familiarity,
parties (though I never did any of that)
crappy roommates,
my first introduction of hanging out of indie coffeehouses...etc.

Have I left out anything else.

Confessions of an Unrealistic Crush

I'm in for it. His name is (for the sake of hiding his identity) Jesse Sibley. A handsome football player that played college football. Technically Jesse is a wide receiver in case any sports fan wanted to know what position he played. Tall and athletic which is one of many ways you can describe him. I guess importantly he's a good Christian man. The tall, athletic and handsome are what most woman look for in a man. I prefer men with a sense of humor and intelligence (but not to the point where he becomes some pretentious jerk).

But when you see Sibley, all those traits seem to go out the window and you just see what's on the surface. More likely athletes, as same as famous people in general, love their significant others to be beautiful just like them.

So why in God's earth I would fall in love with Jesse Sibley. I'm not at all athletic. His whole family is athletic outdoors type of people. Sibley would never touch me with a ten foot pole.

(to be continued)

I Love It!

The last couple of nights I was hanging out with my friend/co-worker and watch the NFL Draft. I guess it was one of the events where it holds me over until the football season starts. Was sad that Colt McCoy didn't go in the first round? But why on earth did Tim Tebow went ahead of him...I will never know. If I were these football players waiting to be drafted, I rather sleep through it and wake up in the next morning so someone would say, "Good morning, you are playing for...."

Well I was mostly concern about Jordan Shipley. I honestly wanted him to go to the Titans or Cowboys. When the those teams grabbed WR, then I wondered. It was a shock and is still a shock that he went to the Cincinnati Bengals. I don't know if I can be a fan but it'll take time. Maybe I should have been a bengal for Eeyore's Birthday Party in homage to Jordan going to Cincinnati. I was too busy though.

This morning I volunteered for the Texas Roundup. I talked to a freshman from Westlake High. So I mentioned about Drew Brees went there. He said the day after the school declared it a holiday and everyone had to wear some Saints t-shirts and if they didn't they were sent to the Principal's office where they were given t-shirts to wear for the day. I love it!

Oh dear...technology...

Can't live with it, can't live without it. I finally ordered DSL through AT&T that's going to come next Wednesday which I should have ordered on Monday. For some strange reason I thought today was Friday.

I know what gave me that idea. I'm at the Bouldin Creek where it is crowded and busy. It almost feels like it is a Friday. The person behind the counter was telling me that it is always busy on a Wednesday. I guess people are trying to make it though the week. What a better way than to go out and pretend it is Friday. Could you imagine everyday is Friday?

Today at work, half of my co-workers had viruses on their computers. Even though I had to do my usual job, I couldn't go online. Well I was productive with my work but I felt like I was cut off from the world.

Next three nights is the NFL Draft...I'm busy until then.

Sun's out, oh wait never mind...

Yesterday it rained and poured. Springtime in Austin is never lasts a long time. When it gets hot I miss the weather back in my hometown. My hometown is in Downey, CA. I never say that I'm from Los Angeles because technically I never lived in LA. I lived in Los Angeles County. It's strange that I never really fit in when I always went to work in Los Angeles/Hollywood.

Many ways I was glad to leave my job and retreat back home to Downey and even hang around in south of Downey, aka Orange County. It was a brief time because I ended up moving to Austin.

Lifeworks and Volunteer Appreciation Party

A couple of hours ago I came back from the Lifeworks Tutor Appreciation Party. In one of my previous posts I eluded to teaching ESL and my experience in first starting out. I didn't realize I started November 3, 2009. I thought it was in October or even earlier. The food was good. It was catered by Mandola's Italian Market. There was a wonderful speech by the Executive Director of Lifeworks who started off as a tutor just like everyone in the room and how she helped form Lifeworks.

Also there are plans to have a new Lifeworks location near the Austin Community College (Riverside) campus area...

It's a official...I'm going to be rowing

Yep I did it! Took some money out of my savings and signed up for rowing at the Austin Rowing Club. See you guys in May. I'll be out there rowing in Town Lake. Going to be awesome! I'm excited. It's one of the few exercises besides yoga that I care to do.

MMMM....TWINKIES

Haven't had these in awhile but it brings back memories as a kid. Courtesy of Mental Floss, one of my favorite sites to visit.

Row...Row...Row your boat

Believe it or not, I always was fascinated with rowing. I remember going to the gym and I would seek out the erg (rowing machines) before I go on any machine. Actually it was the only machine I care to go on. It's also one of the few exercises I want to do. No way I can do aerobics or kickboxing. But I'm seriously considering joining the Austin Rowing Club.

Today was free rowing day and I had a great experience at the Austin Rowing Club. They were nice and helpful. I somewhat freaked out when we left the port. I was worried about going into the water. But I relaxed and tried my best to row. It is somewhat difficult because you have to get into the rhythm and it's all about technique. But it's really fun.

I highly recommend them if you want to learn rowing here in Austin.

Poor Owl - Afraid to Fly

But the owl is really beautiful as all owls are.

I want to try Master Cleanse but...

It sounds like a good idea, especially after Thanksgiving and Christmas when I eat things that I normal don't eat. I visited the doctor recently and she said that it was okay to do the master cleanse. I would be able to lose more weight. I love food though and I'm worried not being able to survive without food. True I would save money.

ESL Tutor

I never would have thought that I would be an ESL tutor. If you asked me a year ago, I wouldn't have considered it. So you might ask if I have credentials to be teacher of some sort. Actually I don't. I just went to a couple weekends (during football season. how do I know? I missed a couple of UT football games) of training sessions at LifeWorks and I was basically thrown in.

At first I thought I didn't know what I was doing. Finally Lifeworks ordered some books and it was easier to teach. I feel very confident in what I'm doing.

Now if I can bring some more confidence in other things in my life.

Be Back Shortly

I have to teach an ESL class at Lifeworks. Very fun it is!!! I'll add more since I have deleted my official website due to financial reason! GGGRRR!